Tonight is one of those nights where I fight to remember that I am not irredeemable. God will redeem all my mistakes, my sins, all my wrongdoings, the hurts I’ve done to others, my own heart - with the truth of His Son.
It is this one truth which guards me so completely against the past dark and suicidal thoughts.
Irregardless of what Satan says, I am not irredeemable. If I was, then there would be reason to hurt myself, to destroy myself. But I am redeemed.
So I will not hurt myself quickly, and I will not hurt myself slowly.
I will eat properly and sleep properly. I will not entertain dark thoughts. I will pray always. I will commit my heart to the Lord.